I’m Still New!
I was at a one day yoga workshop last weekend with my old teacher Andrea.
During the discussion, we talked about the age and elderly students. This lead me to remember the conversation my daughter had with my friend when she turned 5.
Daughter: I’m 5 years old now.
Friend: Oh, are you old now?
Daughter: No, I’m still new!!
When I told this story to the group, it seemed to have hit a chord.
We agreed we all feel new inside, no matter what our chronological ages are. Actually not only that I don’t feel old, but I feel I am still a complete beginner on this planet; someone who has no idea how to handle life. Scary and exciting.
The workshop was very interesting. Hatha yoga in the morning, but type of Hatha yoga I had never done before, with lots of pranayama. Afternoon was discussion time over Yoga Sutra and Hatha Yoga Pradipika.
The more I learn yoga the more I realise how little I know.
Each time I step on the mat, I’m a new yoga student. Each sun salutation is a new salutation.
Each time I sit to meditate, I’m a beginner.
Have you had such an experience, when you took an exam or a test and during the exam you already knew you would fail? You already knew that you didn’t deserve to pass? Well, it’s a bit like that. I don’t think the release from this karmic wheel is due for me after this life. I know so little in this life and I need many many more life times to learn.
I’m still so new.